Yeah I'm so not the livejournal type. Well obviously; but I figured I would try.

Hmm; in the last month I have gotten back together and broken up with Manny. I don't think she really understands the logic behind it. But truth is we've been in this cycle for so long now that if we don't move on I'm scared its going to break us. I mean I love the girl. I really do, but who meets the person they are supposed to spend the rest of their lives with at 14? I think we're friends; although after the other night at the launch, I guess that's questionable.

I've also been living with Ellie and successfully kicking the drugs. Easily one of the hardest things I have ever gone through, I don't know what I would of done if it wasn't for Manny, Ellie and Sean helping me through it. Seriously the amount of nights I knocked on Sean Cameron's door to go running are just.. endless. I owe that guy my life twice over which unless you've been living under a rock - you all know about. Recent developments have seen us becoming a little closer; I don't know what I would do without her in my life. Seriously don't. El is like my rock or something. I couldn't imagine not being with her right now. When she smiles, I just know everything is going to be okay.

Album launch was great what a lie, I'm heading on tour next week. Justin Timberlake and Craig Manning; bringing sexy back yo. lol.

Its been a long time since I updated this thing. a lot has been going on in my life, and not necessarily in a good way The first single has officially come out “Free.” The video was pretty cool to shoot, lots of me jamming on roof tops with a weird cartoon version of me running around too. You guys have probably seen it already. Nash would more then likely call me lame :PI haven’t even called Manny. Coz I’m ashamed? I don’t know. There have been… other girls. The perks of the job right? What goes on the road, stays on the road. But I love her. Manny I mean. I dont want to hurt her. It just happened. Im so fucked up.

I’m in Toronto for about a week, my manager finally managed to score me a bit of a vacation More like, told me to go home and clean up my act before I came back to the tour. I don’t even know how it happened really. One second I was happy just with my music, the next I was involved with coke and E and being so completely out of it.. that I could barely remember why I started this whole thing in the first place. Its my present for hitting #18 and still climbing on the US charts. Kind of weird to think about right? I can't wait to just chill with Joey and Ang, and all you guys. It will be just like old times right?

or not. have i really changed that much? Oh and I have a new AIM: xrockgodmanning